Angela

She sleeps with eyes half open
And all curtains drawn.
She looks at her scars
And peels them wounded
And feels more forlorn.
She blows the candles
And wishes them away–
A reminder of a year past.
She screams at the monsters
Under her bed
And summons them to hush.
She holds the gun under the feathers
And grips it tight to fire
At shadows on the wall
Whispers from the hall
And screechings thru the wire.
She fears the war
That long has ended
And still shivers from bombs
That blinded her
From daily shades of orange and yellow
Painting up the sky.
She lets her ears fill with salt
From rivers of quiet pain
But she’s an angel
Shattered and torn
Who shall flap her wings again.

25 July 2014

Marie Angela. You are a ubiquitous biscuit which reminds me of home. And one who quiets our scary dreams when we were children, on our beds, alone. Happy birthday, A.

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Si Buena Carla F. Zaldivia ay isang self-proclaimed Cebuana na tatlong taon nang nasa Cebu at "di na pwiding ibaligya sa Colon". Siya ay mukhang glamorosa sa umaga habang nakikipagbesobeso sa mga tao sa hotel, pero patang pata naman pagdating ng bahay sa dami ng trabaho. Minsan rin siyang naglaro ng pagiging diosa sa loob ng isang kwartong puno ng empleyadong nagpipilit magpilipit ng dila para maiwasan ang pagpapalaganap ng prostitusyon tuwing wiwikain ang "Visit Cebu because we have a lot of beautiful and exquisite beaches."

Dati siyang nakikipagpatintero sa mga elektronikong liham sa isang Call Center sa Laguna, habang nakikipagpalitan ng malagkit na tingin sa mga titik na bunga ng maghapon o magdamag na kapipindot.

Noon ay isa siya sa mga maiingay na guro sa Departamento ng Humanidades sa Unibersidad ng Pilipinas Los Baños. Nagturo ng pakikipagtalastasan sa wikang Ingles, pangongopya ng mga pagsisiyasat nang hindi nabibisto, at kung paano magbihis nang hindi nahahalatang pang-ilang ulit mo nang isinuot ang pirasong iyon sa isang linggo.

May plano siyang maging triathlete ngunit hindi pa rin siya marunong lumangoy o magbisikleta.

Paborito niyang salita at gawain ang soliloquy kahit maraming ibang tao sa paligid.

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  1. avatar Abraham de la Torre says:

    I knew by the blurb that this was about an angel. Maybe sinful but will not fall. Because she has faith for wings and will fly as immediately as she hastens to heal. A very fine homage to the person it defines.
    And you wanted me to believe you cannot write of joy. Could’ve fooled me, girl. Bravo!

  2. avatar Carla Zaldivia says:

    Thanks, Ham! It was in perfect timing, a birthday. :) Though we are both not a fan of birthday greetings, we are both grateful for births. As most would say about my not being able to take praise well, so is her reluctance to acknowledge her honor badges. :) Such kindred spirits. :)

  3. avatar Abraham de la Torre says:

    Well said!

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